Weaned...

Well, it's official...Roen is weaned!

However, I DID NOT plan on weaning him so soon and I am a bit emotional about it! We are going to Africa in June and there are several different vaccinations we had to get before we could go. About a month ago I asked Roen's pediatrician if it would be ok for me to get these vaccinations while still nursing. He said he didn't think it would be a problem. However, when I went to get my shots today, the nurse recommended me not nurse after taking them. Two of the shots were live viruses so there is always the chance I could pass that through my milk. Of course, I was not about to risk that! So cold turkey...we are done!

Actually, I had already gone down to only his bedtime feeding and sometimes he will wake up around 6:30 to eat and then go back to sleep until 7:30.  So I was really only cutting out that last feeding (sometimes two).

But...this was one of my most special times with Roen. I would just sit there and snuggle him while he laid in my arms one last time for the day! I was not prepared to stop feeding him today and I am really, really emotional about never getting to feed him again! Sometimes he would stop, look up at me and just smile. I always held his chubby little legs under my arm a certain way and he just fit so perfectly in my arms. Tonight when I went to put him down, it was like neither of us really knew what to do. He looked at me like 'Mommy, why aren't you feeding me?" and I wanted SO badly to just nurse him one last time. I even cried later to Micah! I was not emotional at all with Remi. I guess I just hadn't prepared myself yet.

Baby boy, I am not ready for this!